Getting My Learn On Pt. 2 – Publishing

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Well, now I had a book written and I had edited it a few times.  I was generally pleased with it and had received a request for what happens next.  What to do with it?  Should I go traditional publishing or e-book?  How little I knew.

Luckily, I knew that I didn’t know much. Now you know that I knew I didn’t know…  Well you get the drift.  So, I researched like a madman and I came up with as many questions as I found answers.  Sometimes the internet has too much information.

So back to the books as it were.  I jumped into a class run by a very interesting man Othneil Seiden (https://www.amazon.com/Othniel-J.-Seiden/e/B001H6MOGE).  He covered the options I knew of as well as a few others I hadn’t come across in my own research.

I had a better understanding of how the upfront costs for On Demand publishing are generated.  I now knew how long it would take via traditional publishing before my book (if it gets accepted) would be available.  I also knew what I would need to take care of on my own if I did epublish.  I had also learned about partnership publishing, its upfront costs and its values.

I was now down to a handful of requirements: Formatting for the various epublishing, ISBN, LCCN and Copyright.  Oh and track down a book cover artist.

Makes me wonder what else I don’t know.  Progress right?

Bridge over the River

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It had a taken a week but the body of the missing young woman had been found.  Her arms and legs had kept her lodged between the railings of the bridge.  But finding her corpse only led to more questions.

The locals had spoken about a young couple who had been seen camping out in the nearby forest but neither of them had set foot in town in the past couple weeks.  The search for the lady had begun once the police had fished her husband’s body out of the river.  The need to find her had grown once the black and white photos sealed in plastic bags were discovered in his coat pockets.

The pictures told a story of a young couple on vacation.  They ranged from candid shots at a gas station, to posing in front of a ball of twine and a monument or two.  The photos slowly degraded into a gruesome end for the woman.

The husband’s body showed no physical forms of trauma.  It simply looked like he had drowned.  She had rope burns around her ankles and wrists.  The photos unfolded the horror that she had suffered through on her last days.

While still alive, she had been stretched taut between two trees until her husband had cut her arteries and she bled out.  The last of the pictures showed her husband as he worked diligently to cut the organs out of her body before he cleaned them carefully.  Each of her organs were then carefully sealed in plastic bags and then placed back into the open cavity in their proper place.

The most troubling part was that cases like his had been appearing all across the country in the past couple months.  Each one had the old black and white photos of the organs being removed and cleansed.  Nothing linked the victims together, nothing at all.

The detectives were left with two main questions, who had taken the pictures and where had they been developed?  Was this a single person or was there more than one photographer?

(image courtesy of Ryan McGuire of https://www.tinyrobotcreative.com/)

Getting My Learn On Pt. 1 – Writing

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Hello?  Is this thing on?  Am I doing this right?  Isn’t that the question?  After a while you begin to second guess yourself.

The struggle I felt while writing my third book in the series really brought me down.  The first was a labor of adventure and surprise.  The second had a tough start but the rest was a breeze.  In comparison, the third one was a fight from the first word to the last.

I learned so much from each one and some of those lessons were hard. I tried to use an outline on the first one and the characters made other plans.  The second just flowed through and was a pure delight.

The third one didn’t want to cooperate. I had to create an outline and follow it every step of the way.  The characters spoke to me hesitantly.  Frustration ensued and joy in the process was lost.  I persevered through it but kept wondering what was I doing wrong?

I found a few classes to help me out on this part of my journey. I took a class from Rick Gustafson (http://www.rickgustafson.net/) and he covered quite a bit of structure.  He covered points that I seemed to know but hadn’t put a word to.  And I was happy to find that I was doing the right thing in regards to my struggle.

Perseverance was the key.

Rewriting My Second Novel, Twistin’ Matilda Pt. 2

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I finished my third one and it was drudgery.  All my best laid plans were to waste.  Did I really want to continue doing this?

I went back to Twistin’ Matilda after I took a short break to collect myself.  I sat down and began to work on it again and something about it didn’t feel right.  I made some changes but realized I didn’t know what was wrong.  I had to reread The Matilda.

It was simple and yet somewhat daunting.  You see, it was the characters.  They had altered quite a bit and they didn’t seem like the same people.  Well, as with any story, they were integral to the plot.  Their needs and desires were what made the story.  If the characters were off, then the story didn’t work.  And if that didn’t work then it simply didn’t work.

The benefit was that it was fixable.  I poured through the first book and worked my way through Twistin’ Matilda.  I threw chunks of it out.  The flow was better and I was once again happy with it.  It has been sent off to my test audience, editors, and proof readers (what have you).

I await their responses so I can get this one whipped into shape.  In the meantime, it’s now back to Black Matilda to revise it.  It has so much potential!

Circles within Circles

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He awoke as if from a dream.  He pirouetted before he slid across the floor to his next partner.  Her mask was a creature of nightmare and it startled him.

“How long have I been here?” he wondered.  “How long have I been dancing?”

But he continued to glide his way along the dance floor from one freakishly masked partner to the next.  Confusion took him and his movements began to slow.  His steps began to falter as he realized, “Why can’t I stop?”

His vision swam and distorted laughter rang in his ears but still he continued to move.  His last dance partner threw him into a dip before spinning him like a top.  Around and around he went as he careened along the dance floor until he slipped and fell onto the tiles and found himself resting against the fireplace.

It felt like he was laying on a bed of moss and the ballroom smelled of the forest.  He giggled haphazardly as he tried to stand but he tripped on a pile of long hair.  His bushy brows obscured his sight but he realized that he had slipped on his snowy white beard.

But he could only remember being clean shaven and it had been black as the darkest of nights.  “My hair?  It is so pale!  Why is it so long?”  He wondered as the ballroom faded away.   He found himself with his back against the trunk of a tree in a vast forest.  A lonely ring of mushrooms encircled him.

“Why do I feel so old?  Am I so tired from dancing?”

A voice whispered in his ear, “Good night sweet prince.”

The lids of his eyes closed of their own volition as snow began to fall upon his body from the branches above.

He didn’t wake that night or ever again.  His bones still grace that fairy circle and they do not rest alone.

Writing My Third Novel, Black Matilda Pt. 1

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So there I was, two thousand zero zero, OUT OF TIME.  I jumped off the Twistin’ Matilda train and hopped onto the next car, Black Matilda.

I had the points I wanted to hit, the directions I thought the characters would take and where the story would end up.  Besides feeling a little rushed, I felt prepared.

But I wasn’t.  I had no idea how unprepared I was.

It was a battle to get every single word down on the page.  The characters didn’t want to do what I needed them to do but they didn’t offer any suggestions in return.  Days spread into weeks and weeks into months.

The first novel took a little over five months to write.  The second book only took twenty days.  This one took two and half months for the first draft.  I hated almost every minute of it.  I had to go back to my original plan and reverted to using an outline to finish it. It turned out to be the longest story I had written yet.

After it was done, I had to keep in mind the words of Terry Pratchett, “The first draft is just you telling yourself the story.”  It wasn’t a wasted effort.

So, all in all, I had written the longest story I had ever done.  I also knew somewhere inside of me that there was plenty to work with on the written pages.  And best of all?  I had persevered.  So a big one for me.

The Morning After

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The lids of his eyes split open and a grunt escaped his lips.  Through the grumbling pain only one thought occupied his mind, why did he have such a pounding headache?  Carpet fibers wiggled their way between his fingers and brushed against the sides of his chest.  Why was he laying on the floor?  Groggily he got to his feet.

The last thing he remembered was that after a fifteen hour driving day, they had pulled into this tiny town somewhere in the middle of the Southwest.  This little motel on the side of the road had vacancies and it was cheap.  It had been a long day but the two of them were finally almost to California.

He ran his hand through his messy hair and his fingers snagged into something sticky.  At the same he muttered, “Why is the carpet wet?”

He pulled his hand free from his hair and looked down.  Sticky redness coated his feet but he also noticed a couple empty wine bottles lying haphazardly on the carpet.  A chuckle burst out, “We must’ve had one hell of a night…”

With a long stretch, he made his way to the small bathroom.  As he struggled to find the light switch, he scratched at his lower back and a brittle material broke under his fingernails.  Once the light clicked on he glanced down and old crusted blood fragments were trapped in the crease of his nails.  Bemusedly, he looked up into the mirror below the bright lights and stood there in absolute shock.

Old blood spattered the filthy t shirt that looked like he had been lying in it. His feet squelched as he dug them into the bathroom mat. He looked down in confusion, “What the fuck…”

Fear tingled down his spine as it began to eat at him.  In a panic he ran into the main room and his eyes grew wide in horror. Blood sprayed the walls and the ceiling peeling from the weight of it.  The bed sheets lay in ragged rust streaked piles.  In the center of it all, was her.  No breath moved her chest and she was as pale as if she had never seen the sun.  Her freckles stood out starkly against the pallor of her skin.

The mattress was fair to bursting with her blood.  On the cleanest corner of it, her internal organs were splayed out individually and placed in a perfect pattern of their placement in the body.  Each of them had been meticulously cleaned of her blood before being placed there.

He choked on the keening that burst from his throat as he fell to his knees.  Tears sprouted from his face as he crawled over to her corpse.  As he clutched her unresponsive body, he shook.  Grief ripped through him as well as a blind rage, who would do this to her?

Slowly, he let her slip from his grasp to fall back to the reddened mattress.  He ground the tears from his eyes into his face.  He got to his feet and looked for his phone.  It took some doing but he finally found it lying under the bed stand.  The battery was dead but the charging cord was right next to it.

It took a few minutes for the phone to boot up and its little chime echoed in the quiet room.  He stared at the screen blankly.  The date was wrong.  It had to be.  “We’ve been here a week?  No way.  It’s just not possible…”

He dialed the Police and waited for them to pick up.  Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed a vintage camera lying on its side on top of a pile of black and white photos.  The camera wasn’t one he’d seen before.  While hold music blared in his ear, he wandered over and picked up some of the pictures.

Just then, a voice came over the line, “911, what’s your emergency?”

“I need to report a murder…” his dead voice uttered into the receiver.  He sat on the edge of the bed and steadily answered the questions that he was asked.  Idly, he sifted through the photos in his hand. Strangely the people in them looked familiar. They were of him and his wife at different stops along the trip.  He flipped through them until he came across the first of the motel room itself.

The first one was the two of them unpacking. The next were the two of them sharing a glass of wine after they had showered.  There was a series of photos as they made love. Each of the photos had been taken from inside the room.

The remaining few in his hand showed his back as he approached the bed and plunged a knife into her chest, repeatedly.  The phone slipped from his fingers as he rifled through the pile of photos under the camera.  Both he and his wife were in every single photo and the images grew worse.  He shook as he went through them again and again while a tinny voice echoed in the background from his phone, “Sir?  Are you there? Sir?”

“We weren’t alone.  Someone was with us the whole time.  But who was it?”

The door burst open and the police subdued him quickly.  The entire time, he kept shouting, “Who was the photographer?  Who was it?”

Rewriting My Second Novel, Twistin’ Matilda Pt. 1

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There I sat feeling so accomplished.  I took a break before I jumped on that rewrite.  I deserved it right?  That and I felt that the closer I did the rewrite to the time I started the third one, the easier it would be.

I did my steps and handed it out to some of my testers (be they forever willing to read my words).  Many things were pointed out that needed to be fixed and I fixed the ones I saw the need to.

And then I took an even longer break.  I had life things to take care of.  Never mind that that feeling of accomplishment filled me every time I thought about revising this one.  As the time drew near for working on the next one, I sat down and went through Twistin’ Matilda.  And there was more work to it than I remembered.

And then I ran out of time.  My deadline to start on the third one crashed into me and sent me spinning.  I did what I could and then set it aside.

I had to jump on Black Matilda because otherwise what was the point?

Time & Money, Money & Time

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Time equals money.

Time is a concept that was created by humans.  We have broken it down into a series of symbols all in the desire to place our need for order on top of it.  Yet, there are those among us who believe that everything throughout our concept of time is happening at the same moment.  This could mean that time itself would be a bit of a misnomer.

Money is also a concept created by humans.  This one we have broken down into a system of symbols to equate work done with some value outside of our everyday needs.  In today’s world we have a gone step further and replaced the symbol for value of time (gold, silver, etc) with valueless symbols (bills, bonds, stocks, etc) that represents a promise of the actually valuable symbol.

Both Time and Money were created to provide order to our daily lives and to provide value to the time used in our daily lives. But in the end they are just symbols and actually have no intrinsic value in and of themselves.

So Time may equal Money but a concept equaling a concept built into that concept still comes out to actually equalling nothing.

But it sure is nice to have a pocketful of symbols that you can hold onto for a future concept.

The Wonder of Beta Readers

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I want to take a moment and talk about the people who are willing to sift through the rubble of your cobbled together ideas and offer feedback, assistance, what have you.

These people are absolutely amazing.

First off, they want to read it.  And after plowing through your first draft, that little boost to the ego feels great.  It empowers you to jump into the 2nd and 3rd draft because you want them to enjoy it.  That’s pretty powerful right there but wait there’s more!

They are also willing to offer constructive criticism.  Nothing makes you look at your works differently like another set of eyes.  Sometimes it’s humbling, other times its uplifting but it is always useful.

Now here is where it gets crazy.  They are willing to read it again after you’ve made changes in the later drafts.

I didn’t really understand how much I needed them and I don’t know if I can ever really explain it.  All I really know is that my journey in this adventure wouldn’t be complete without them.